Monday, June 13, 2011

Assholes

Have you ever been in a room with other people and just sat back and listened to them. Will I have and I do it a lot. It amazes me how many negative people there are in this world. These people talk shit about everything that's going on around them. But at the same time they try to act like they have their shit together and like nothing is bothering them and their lives are perfect. They contradict theirselves every time they are complaining about something because thats not having a perfect life.And if you have the smallest conversation with them and then leave the room you better believe that they will talk shit about you. They think they can analyze you from a 2 minute conversation. I kind of fell sorry for these people because everything in their lives is negative. This has to be a miserable life to have to fake happiness and never have a positive thought about anything. This is not the key to happiness. The key to happiness is picking the positive out of every situation regardless of how horrifying the situation might have been. The key is not judging people. This is one of the worst things we can do when we meet new people. Because you could be missing out on a new friendship. Or missing out on experiencing new and exciting things in life.

Confusion

What do you do if your angry because your lonely but you have a wife and kids. But they say they don't come around because your angry and bitter all the time. But my anger turns to them for letting me fell alone. When at first I was angry with my parents, my job, and my addiction. Because of this anger my family started distancing thierselves from me. They don't know when I might explode over something they say so they stop saying anything at all. They don't know what my attitude is like at any given time so they are fearful to approach me with anything at all. They are scared of me and it makes me fell like a piece of shit.

What Are You Talking About

Addicts Addicts Addicts. I'm surrounded by addicts and I'm an addict myself. But these people don't do anything but talk just to hear the sound of their voices. We all go to the same classes, groups, and meetings. All I hear is people complaining about other people. I don't know but I'm willing to bet on the fact that no one is in here because of what somebody else was doing. We're hear because of our own behaviors and actions. All I hear is that if I were in the "Real World" and this happened I would us. I don't know what I'm going to do when I get out of rehab. This really pisses me off. We all go to the same classes day after day. We all know there is a process to relapsing it doesn't just happen. Drugs don't just fall out of the sky into our hands and mouths. It's a process, we have to think about using, go and actually buy the drug, prepare the drug, then use the drug. Now that's at least 30 minutes and 4 or 5 opportunities to say "stop what am I doing" or to call someone. We always have a choice we don't have to use we just have to change our way of thinking and our behaviors. And when we get out of rehab were going to work our recovery plan and stay clean. So please stop being negative and start sharing positive thoughts. Like saying to yourself "I know how to stay sober, I know what to do if a problem presents itself, and no matter what happens I have a skill I learned in rehab to deal with any situation."